I had to figure this out. There had to be another way, another option. I had to get my life back.
For the next three years I felt lost. With little resources, being a college student burdened by student loans, 3 jobs, and in chronic pain, I began hunting for a solution. I tried everyone and everything in the tri-state area. Neurologist, Orthopedic Specialist, Pain Specialist, Hypnotherapist, support groups, reiki, massage.. I was determined to find a different answer.
My energy felt like it was constantly decreasing, I could not bear the thought of getting older because I felt 90 at the age of 23. The fear of getting cancer also constantly lingered in the back of my mind.
The sparkle I had for life was missing, no longer being able to row competitively or for fun, I was unable to work out, I was consuming easy, fast, comfort foods so I began to gain weight. My relationships deteriorated, leaving me emotionally isolated and drained. Eventually, even my school work performance began to suffer. I was getting my degree from one of the most prestigious schools in the country and I was so lost as to how I was going to get through this life—living in this pain and with the threat of disease looming all the time…..how was I to get out? Where were the other options?